Wasted talent

These days i feel a bit like a wasted talent. i think there are several reasons for this feeling. the first is i keep getting rejections from the jobs i’ve applied to, and it’s been demoralizing and slowly crushing me. i mean, it’s like i’ve had enough bad world news being passively and uncontrollably fed to me every single day, and now my brain has to constantly deal with being fed personal bad news.

imagine what the 24/7 streams of negative news does to one’s brain and behavior.

the second is language barriers in the EU. i mean the entire EU is the epitome of tower of Babel. i’m crushed every single time when i get rejected due to the language, which makes me wonder if i’m better off somehwere else where i do speak the language fluently. i mean, the scenario may well be that they DO want me based on my professional experiences, but because of this one little thing, they picked another candidate instead. not only do i feel like i’m a wasted talent, but also that i do not belong here. what’s the point of it all?